Thursday, July 15, 2010
I have been a parent for over seven years. If I was working at any other job for seven years I think I'd be good at it. Well experienced.
Why does that not translate to parenting?
The two year old has been a nightmare for the past two days. Fully two.
Throwing herself on the ground and tantruming. Not eating any food I prepare but complaining of being hungry.
Shouting, hitting - the whole nine yards.
It has been difficult. So tiring.
I have not been patient. I have shouted.
I have not felt good about my parenting.
Today we noticed she was hot.
Guess what - she has a fever. Now that I know this -I realize she has had an intermittent cough. She has not had her usual energy and obviously - no appetite.
Why didn't I notice? I've done this before.
She was acting so out of character.
I gave her time outs. I shouted.
Uuuggh. I feel awful.
That's it - no punchline.
I just needed to confess.