Friday, May 1, 2009
I've known for a long time that being a parent is like being on a roller coaster. As Pink says - I bought the ticket, I'm strapped in.... These actions in no way prepare you for the ride.
The eleven month old and I had an amazing day today. She slept well, she greeted me with a gorgeous gummy smile. We played farm and she delighted at my animal noise impersonations. We swung together at the park and she reached for my hand to take her down the slide. She ate well, napped well and even gave me her rarely offered, cuddle with back pat. Delicious.
The six year old came home from school and they put on a puppet show for me. I could have burst with happiness. Compare it to 48 hours earlier when I could have collapsed with fatigue. When the six year old was more miserable than I've ever seen her.
When I was emotionally wrung out.
I would like to get off the roller coaster and take a nice flat train ride for a while. What are the odds? Where do I apply? I am a thrill seeker by nature but I really, really would like a quiet life for a while. I would like to take a shower when I need one. Eat my meals while they are hot (I'll take warm.). Read my book by the chapter - not the page. Sleep.
Picture that little nirvana and then join me back in the real world.
I remain optimistic - Mother's day is on the horizon.
Note to husband: No pressure :0)